i remember

this time in my life when things were great. when i was happy. maybe time is trying to make me pay for the time i took from the world with this permanent smile on my face.because ever since then, nothing compares.everything may not have been perfect, but it was close.i can still remember frames of a day that i look back to when the clouds are lingering over my head. i wish i'd appreciated that time more,because now it's gone.and i can't go back and cherish the fact that i was with the people i love most, and we were all happy and having fun and smiling and we were all still close. we sat out there until it was cold and dark, talking and laughing and you were there. you.making sure i was okay.and when you asked if was okay, i shoudl have replied, "no, because i know today will end", but if i'd known things were going to change, i would have crawled into this hole alot earlier.time, where did you go? what did you do? and most importantly, what did i do to deserve this?